Only as an act of complete and total desperation will I consider surrender. I push myself all the way to the edge of doubt until I have no place to turn but yet it is so overwhelmingly satisfying as a result…..Go figure? Like all I have to do is let go and still I refuse out of I don’t know what that is so thick. I’m giving myself upper-cuts in my chin and just standing there and looking more and more like the pain and pleasure principles than anything else. These are the extremes of opposites I can and very often manifest as my reality. Ouy…… It’s what I do and how I get there.