“Power corrupts absolutely”

“Power corrupts………”                                                                                                                       Absolute power corrupts absolutely;”                                                                                               “I am all powerful…….”                                                                                                                    “Draw your own conclusions”


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Just thinking

I remember feeling like I had lost all hope. I had no purpose to be alive and was only taking up space..I remember thinking that I was even to unworthy to be breathing the air that someone with a purpose could be using.

That was a very depressing time and it seems like it lasted a long time, years, decades in fact.I tried everything to elevate my state of mind and wound up find heroin that turned out to be my saving grace.In a very abstract way I believe it actually saved my life.It dulled the deep dissatisfaction I experienced as a part of a so called society that made absolutely no sense at all to me. Ny family was convinced I had mental problems and so that was it. She’s nuts, they’d all say behind my back. They sent me to shrinks at 12 years old so I would get right. Ice skating lessons and Charm School to develop more feminine ways with the bonus of learning how to walk up and down stairs in shoes never meant for the human foot. Mom’s closet is where norm,al clothes were to be found for those special occasions I was obligated to appear. What made it worse was having a very normal sister to always be compared to. Maybe that was what I meant when I had the thought that she was going to ruin my life. that came to me at Roosevelt Park in Chicago, when I was very young and getting off the merry go round feeling kid joy even though it seemed I was always down when the brass ring came around. that is until my sister informed me I was on a stationary horse that didn’t even go up. It wasn’t so much that I was crushed as I became very aware at that moment that life was getting ready to begin with a big red caution sign flashing in my consciousness.

Turns out I was preceint, we no longer even speak. haven’t for probably 40 years, if that’s a clue. This is the person who became a conservative religious Jew, to which I would say, Ouy! I could even say that in thee later years of my life and after spending hours on line getting educated about history well I am practically an antisemite. thanks Jackie, for the opportunity to research religion.

I needed to completely break down so I could finally break through and embrace the person I have come to be. I’m not so sure I would have been able to if not for all the resistance getting here. Without ever knowing it, my sister has assisted me more than almost any other human in my life. Not to mention my whole family and the important roles they played that would insure my personal development.

I am ever so grateful.

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Important Words


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It’s not exactly ‘deja vu’ all over again…….but

Smart phones and scanners and dummies with cameras texting and staring at a 2 inch light box…….never look up .

Plus all the multiple choices one may muster and call education…….

The only real critical ingredient missing is only critical thinking……..that’s all.

They only forgot to teach people how to think! That’s all.

It’s not like it’s the end of the world………..is it? Cause I didn’t hear about it on Fox or MSNBC.

It’s always the end of the world online……….(the shock value has worn itself out.)

“They” say the Illuminati invented the ‘New Age’………….

and all the ‘Light’ workers are waiting for their ‘Light bodies’ to be Illuminated…………..uh oh!

What top do ?  What to do ?

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A Tipping Point

I was listening to an interview with someone who has written a book about what may be our future as humans plus.  Like in not so many years the development of artificial intelligence will be so far ahead it be beyond imaginable, imagine! We could be way down the list of  priorities as just regular humans sooner than you think. …and here I was worrying about DNA when that’s probably the least of our worries!  Yikes, the name of the book is “Forbidden Gates” by Tom Horn.  I’ve seen other interviews about his books before and he’s a very interesting man and comes from a religious background so he has a very diverse point of view.

It can be rather scarey thinking about our future considering how little there is in the way of progress these days.  There are no moral challenges, no-one is even paying attention anymore and forget about any legal issues since our new way of doing business is what is your price? Face it, everyone has a price.  It’s the way of the world now and there are so few exceptions it’s hardly worth mentioning.  So trans humanism may not even merit a second thought to some in fact I’ll bet there’s a whole lot of folks who will think it’s the greatest thing since sliced bread. The problem here is that we know now what a bad idea that turned out to be, sliced white wonder full gluten…a better friend candida could ever have. So it’s just another bummer about life, as if the future wasn’t bad enough our present state isn’t so great either…speaking of food, air, Agenda 21….I could go on but I’m getting depressed.

I also know from experience on this very blog that if someone doesn’t like what you say it will simply disappear right before your eyes. I remember once we had a 1st amendment.  That was then this is now.

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What’s so amazing to me is how many people are so very religious.  Had no idea.  Since I’ve been a You Tube fanatic I read a lot of comments and especially the religious ones and some of them are unbelievable……to me anyway. They are true blue believers and do not question any of it.  Go figure? I don’t know why exactly that I’ve always been curious about this stuff.  I don’t remember if I’ve already mentioned this but when I was just a kid, around 12 or 13, I guess, I really can’t remember but I used to watch TV at odd hours when all the religious programming was on with Cal Worthington of ‘Used Car’ and ‘old movies’ fame…….Sometimes they were on early in the mornings as well….My my ‘how the times they are a changin’   In fact, I can say with all honesty…..This United States is not the same country where I grew up.  Especially in regards to religion.  Seems to me the worse our education system devolved the more the religion ironically evolved. (I know, probably could have used another word)  There for awhile it was so crazy what with all the new age and the clash’s here and there and everywhere………..To me, however, nothing really changed except that I began to notice how much of life was being expropriated and directed towards a new age  and world order.  (and to those in the business of snooping in other people’s business…Please do not disappear my blog again!)

When I watch these religious videos I watch them because I want to learn about this stuff so I will understand what people are talking about when they talk about the bible ….as there was never one around my house when I was growing up.  But now that I have spent hours watching and listening and reading the comments……The truth is the more i am on this quest the more ridiculous  it appears to be.  It is obvious to me that most of the people who comment are true believers of stuff that has been pounded into their brains over and over and they really have no other reference to go to….and even worse is that almost everyone who reads it literally defines it according to how it has been defied for them by whoever is standing up there behind the pulpit. Since everyone has their own understanding.how is it they can all be saying the same thing? and yet it is clear that everyone does. I don’t get it.

So, I’m watching these tv preachers and this is the basic deal: Everyone is doing their thing, they call it ‘witnessing’ …..people are sharing their moment when God spoke to them, this is called ‘testifying’ ….does it sound like a good Hollywood crime drama yet?  The rest of it goes like this: Can’t you feel it? Don’t you want to be saved? Just lidten to sister Sarah and brother Nathan! Don’t you just want to join all of us here in holy communion? Well, maybe they don’t actually say that but certainly similar sounding statements anyway. So here comes the main pitch, Folks, all it takes is one phone call and you can be saved! Who doesn’t want to be saved, right? I’m not so clear about what I would be being saved from exactly but I’m sure it will come anytime now.  Next come the phone numbers and the phone banks and don’t you want to give these wonderful volunteers something to do while they’re up here? Of coarse you do so just dial this number or that one or the 50 other ones if those are busy and pledge and pledge and pledge until you can’t pledge anymore………because once we get your money you will be saved! And that’s pretty much it. You take the millions of lonely widows and widowers who have nothing to do but watch TV and make phone calls and rely 100% on their meager Social security checks and you beat them to unconsciousness until they start believing the script and pretty soon the phones begin to ring.  The sadist part is they never mention that part of the pitch is focused on the loneliness these people feel and out of desperation only call to hear the sound of another human voice, no, what they say is you are now saved…..and as I sit and watch this scratching my head wondering what that means I am sure of at least one thing and that is the fact that whatever it means I’m not going to know from experience since I’m not making the call.

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Watching The Unfolding of Truth

Lately I’m finding more and more sites that are talking about what the truth really is  All that we have been taught to believe is simply false, as it turns out  Not something many would choose to believe especially when you go in the direction of religion. Prepare fore battle. Yet if you listen and pay attention it is clear that we are awash in misinformation, so it isn’t so much a stretch to wonder how far back the deception began.

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